…And the adventure begins…
I have officially started my BigStuf journey…so unreal to even type that!! I met the other 15 interns this past Wednesday, and we immediately left to go to Camp Highland for 2 days of bonding time and team building activities. The Lord has blessed me with these other 15 interns & 2 incredible intern leaders for the summer. It is so neat to see how different each one of us are, but how alike we are at the same time because of our common bond in Christ. We all find it so hard to believe that we have only known each other for 2 days; the Lord has truly blessed these few days already. I cannot wait to see how these friendships are going to continue to grow over the next 2 1/2 months.
While at Camp Highland, I was having my quiet time at an incredibly early hour of 9AM, and I just really sat still and asked the Lord to reveal to me what He wants me to do this summer. I am definitely a girl that loves a solid plan; I felt like I needed a general idea about what I needed to expect for this summer. I wanted God to reveal to me exactly what my role would be at BigStuf, exactly how He would use me with different middle and high school girls, and exactly what I would learn this summer, or at least what to expect to learn this summer.
I waited and waited, praying that the Lord would reveal it in His time; whether that would be during this specific quiet time or just some time in the near future (the sooner, the better!). Literally, the second I opened my eyes from praying for the Lord to show me “what’s next” for this summer, I heard a quiet voice saying “Be still, Ann. Be still.” Immediately, I thought about the verse that says “Be still and know that I am God” (Psalm 46:10). That verse hit me in a new way that morning (which can only be expected about the living, breathing, active Word of God–sharper than a two-edged sword): the Lord revealed to me that I do not have to know what’s next, I do not need an agenda for this summer, I do not need expectations for this summer…I don’t need a plan at all because in the end, HIS WILL will be done! I need to BE STILL, trust in Him, and remember that HE is God! He has a perfect plan for BigStuf this summer–how awesome!!
So in that moment, I realized that I needed to be wrecked of all my summer plans, of all my expectations, of all my desires of what I wanted to get out of this summer. I needed to stop asking God what His plan was for me at BigStuf; instead, I need to just sit and love the truth that my spiritual love-journey with my Creator is ment to be adventurous and unplanned on my part, because I am called to trust in Him with ALL my heart, and that includes any plans that I think I might need for a certain season in my life.
I am leaving for Kenya tomorrow afternoon. My flight leaves at 4:40, and I would love for everyone to be praying for safe and smooth travel plans over the next 2 days. Also, I would love for y’all to be praying for a continual “go with the flow” type attitude from me towards my summer plans..a continual “wreckage” of ANY plans that I might have that I have yet to even realize that I am still holding onto.
Loving you all, praying that the Lord would reveal Himself to y’all everyday in a new way this summer!
